"I will not obey" speech

I will not let my life be dictated by cheesy cliches from books, movies, magazines and song lyrics. I will not trust the PR's of money generation. So, I have decided to be dictated by my own cheesy cliches of always doing the opposite of right, avoiding ethics, disagreeing with law, letting go of the urge to belong, but most of all, questioning everything and everyone, be it authoritative or not, for I am the only thing that is actually real, authentical and free from motives to lie to myself. I will question everything as if I was in this plot of conspiracy, where everyone accused me of being overparanoid just because I constantly peek over my shoulders in shoppingmalls, tie threads between doorknobs and -posts and flee whereever I see government workers. Because it's obvious that they try to distract me from my truth and dictate me. They, the fruits of my imagination, yet uncontrollable and malicious. It's obvious. Can't you see? Can't you see there is no happy, fixed or foretelled ending, beginning nor middle part, no magical horses to save you from drowning to a mudpool, no atom bombs to wash your problems, no nuclear wars to fasten the annihilation, no nothing. There is just you. And from this point on, I am my own cliche.